plastik asterik

Sunday

tell my werewolf NOT to run

(that's a one-eyed frog...lost in battle or from contaminated water)

If you take a good dark flashlight walk through the endless broken down barn woods and set shpongle as your soundtrack...you're almost guarenteed a few good dreams of devil's reject characters with free facepaint and indoor boats.

Oh but in the daytime, it's gloriously inviting.

(i slept next to those dollies = creepytown USA)

(sphongle live)

Friday

On a Not so Tripped-Out Note...

Everything's Covered in Peacocks

We all make discoveries.

I had been working on this philosophy...not quite sure how to express it all, not quite convinced of it myself...

But some magical mushrooms will do the trick. Funny how only the things from the earth can give you a true insight to...things on the earth:

"With only 22 percent of the knowledge i'm aiming to acquire in my life, my working philosophy is that the planet earth has a purpose in the universe. Not to say that no other planet serves a similar purpose...or that any other planet even does or does not serve a purpose...OR that there is no other universe with similar or different attributes...ORRR that 'purpose' even has a meaning anywhere but earth.

[breath!]

My philosophy is that planet earth's purpose is to sustain life. Plant life, animal life, and something i'm a part of - and most concerned with - human life. Growth, survival, renewal, life.

In order to uphold this purpose, there must be reproduction. Thus concluding to my narrower philosophy that my experience and imagination has conjured, 'human existance revolves around reproduction'."

- memo from my phone

It's difficult to explain this philosophy without sounding like i'm simply reiterating the utterly obvious. But people (including myself) fail to see the simplest things. The things that brought us here, keep us here, and will finish us here.

Everything just wants to live and go and grow and just be.

We forget that we're feeding from the earth, that we're giving and taking and going and coming from the ammenities that the earth provides. We get egos and pride and socialized emotional numbness. Greed, power, competition, temptation, and status. What we are 'doing' fucks with what we are REALLY DOING...here on earth.

The means with which we evolve to use in order to achieve the planet's purpose will change and change and change. But whether it be a mating call, an impressive job, similar family values, a computer dating site, a nice smile, or pharimones...we each take a step toward fulfilling our purpose on earth --> sustaining life --> reproduction, by drawing a mate.

It's lovely to find a soulmate. Someone you feel you have a deep underlying connection with. Not a connection on a social or man-made plane, but an individual and magnetic plane that only you know in your gut is something your soul is attached to.

And there are human definitions of what the role of a soulmate may be. What the title is meant to lead to. But the only time it has to be communicated, is to agree upon reproduction. Now if the idea of reproduction is not mutual, one of the two may choose to look elsewhere for a mate. But the soulmate never wavers.

There can be two soulmates, three, four, or none. There can be soulmates through family, through friends, through pets...but they are not there to reproduce. At least not the last step of it.

They are there to guide you to your purpose. To help you with their souls and the power they have to touch yours...because we can only really take the advice of those we trust. Those that we feel just know us, just get us.

I like to surround myself with genius soulmates:

"What is right? That's just a direction. Listen to your intuition."

and my soul is finding it's way...to the continuation of surrounding itself with another deeply connected soul.

It isn't for the social plane, it isn't for the physical, the emotional, the mental, the status, the shared ideals, the musical taste, the choices in style, the mutual friends.

It's for the feeling deep deep in my gut...that won't detach me.

We have a long way to go, individually, together, and when we are together but not physically. I'm enjoying the learning i'm doing on the way and i'm patient. Dreams represent intuition. So I hope you read this.

And lovely as could be,

I'm calm.

I'm peaceful.

I'm content.

I'm alone.

I'm happy.

I'm orange and green.

ALWAYS.

and everything is covered in peacocks.

Wednesday

we live together at magic lane forever

What i overheard out my window in Philly the other day as a daycamp walked by:

"If someone hits you, come tell me. Don't hit them back. If you do, you're out of camp for...for...6 weeks! If mom and dad teach you to hit someone back, they can start their own camp. I'M NOT GONNA HAVE IT...NOT THIS YEAR!"

You tell em' buddy. That's what you gotta deal with at south philly summer camp.

(spacecamp is not as strict)

moon was watchin me make magic lane

[Did you know Alphonse Mucha made jewelry too? He's the fuckin man.]

_____Superior July Playlist II:_____

"The Day (We Fell in Love)" *Acid Girls Wept Remix* - Appaloosa

"Fangela" - Here We Go Magic

"Bottoms Up" - Keke Palmer

"Young Adult Friction" - The Pains Of Being Pure At Heart

"Your Lips And You" - Bikeride

"Actor Out of Work" - St. Vincent

"Velvet" - The Big Pink

"Hiphip Chinchin" - Club Des Balugas

"One in a Million" - Data

"Half Asleep" - School of Seven Bells

"Hold me Down" - Primary 1

"Opposite Sides" - The Epochs

(school of seven bells, try to listen to it all, so good)

Tuesday

so much to tell, so much to show & tell tell tell

somehow,

i seem to feel more feelings up near the forests & the greens...

and they're feelings i've been fearing

but so so so need.

a memo i wrote on my phone while walking to my last night bartending in philadelphia:

i think i'm aways going to need a place that's a home. Somewhere with suburban comforts and the protection of tall trees...though i'm infatuated with bright lights & noisy parties, the nature calms the inner ego in me and the quiet ensures there won't be too much distraction for my already scattered thoughts to escape.

a large picture i made for my dad on father's day.

I'm into globes, contemplating faces, & city backgrounds as of late.

Go figure.

one of my tarot decks

(i had to "clean the deck", which basically means to re-order them...because i did a reading and it was all off. I had 5 cards out of the deck sitting on my dresser all week for inspiration but leaving those out when you're not around is not good energy for the rest of the deck)

BUT LOOK HOW SICK THAT PICTURE IS!

__________________________________________________________

_______________highlights of my astrological year________________

[as according the my beat up astrology BIBLE i've been carrying around since last july]

1. Neptune & Jupiter traveling through aquarius in my third house =

expanding ideals and spirituality + integrating them into daily life

i have been living by astrology more and more and more than ever this year

neptune dissolves the ego boundaries between you and the rest of the world

so that your compassion is deepened

neptune + a little example from some people (one more than others)

showed me how ugly an ego can be so i'm working to drop mine for good

2. Uranus traveling through pisces in my fourth house =

change + redefinition in home life. Parents need additional support,

sudden unexpected moves regarding home, family growth

my brother, my sister, and i all came home + i am working on better family communication

3. Non-harmonious and conflicting planets in my career house =

toughin' it out job wise

self explanitory, i'm broke as shit

4. In general: SPIRITUAL QUESTS, TRAVEL, SERENDIPITY, & EXPANSION

p.s. how awesome is this deck's death card?

BRIEF SUMMARY OF MY SUNDAY MORNING DREAM:

my dad had 'unfortunate news'.

He was holding back tears and said 'this is the hardest thing i'll ever have to tell you'

he held up a binder with a self-made sticker.

He was starting his own project. Producing a Golf Reality Show.

Ok.

The catch is...we have to move to.....AFRICA.

(obviously)

I get so sad, I really don't want to go.

We get to our new place that looks just like America inside.

But we live right next to a big dark murky watering hole where elephants live.

My dad makes us watch clips of the show. It isn't even filmed in Africa.

I feel like we're being tricked.

I run outside and pass a mirror on my way out.

I'm now asian looking???

There is a big hotel-esque lobby i have to go through to get outside.

I go to the watering hole and start to sink into dark yellow....shit.

i don't want to be here.

I go back upstairs to get inside and look in the mirror and see i'm covered in the yellow elephant shit and too

preoccupied with other things to clean it off me. I hate what this place has done to my reflection.

There's more that i collected this weekend. But for some reason, I'm content with my show & tell for tonight.

Goodnight.

Thursday

2 posts in 1 day? SpaceCamp's Rough.

spacestation

tomorrow i'm getting a new job.

tattoos & hometown pretty noise

^ play this video for background mood yo

my dawgs

my catz

MY TATS!

i mean shit ^ why didn't i get the mucha zodiac to begin with

PAUSE:

superior july playlist

'Ghost' - Bombay Bicycle Club

'Take Me Into Your Skin' - Trentemoller

'Glintz' - Outputmessage

'Mes Reves De Satin' - Midnight Movies

'5:15 Train' - A Sunny Day in Glasgow

'Daniel' - Bat For Lashes

'Home *Club Mix*' - Above and Beyond

'Hello Tomorrow *Adidas Version*' - Karen O. & Squeak E. Clean

'White Knight Two' - Surkin

'Big Big Love *Fig. 2*' - Foals

'La Lune *Naum Gabo Remix*' - Sons & Daughters

'At The End Of The Day' - Amon Tobin

'Money In The Afterlife' - Saturday Looks Good To Me

'Want U' - Low-Fi-Fink

'Ramalama *Bang Bang*' - Roisin Murphy

treasures

i just ate a turkey & avocado sandwich. so good.